The Beauty of TIME.

Woah.... My first year of college is over. Out of the city and suburban bound for the summer. I must say, those who say you will learn a whole lot in college are right! I learned so much about the world, people and myself! First, I love NYC!! I really do. Although I did not explore every nook and cranny of this gracious and chaotic city, I lived in it's inspirational and driven presence. Second, I learned that I have TIME. As in, I have TIME to figure out what career path I want to take. I have TIME to figure out who I am (not that anyone really figures that out until they reach about 60 lol but you get what I am saying!). This idea that TIME is on my side scares me! No matter how many advisors, professors, friends, or people tell me that I have TIME, the less and less I begin to actually believe it... However, I am NOW starting to see that.. I do in fact have TIME. I mean I just turned 19... I am still sooooo VERY young! Right? Lastly, I learned that I cannot control what my future holds. I mean I can only control so much but as far as certain thing as to when they are going to happen and how they are going to happen... nope, nope and nope. And again, I am starting to see that this is ok too. Haha I mean it kind of has to be right? To calm my nerves I just keep trying to immerse myself into things that I love to do and hope that those things will guide me. The best antidote to the fear of failure is to stay focused on whatever passion you hold closest to your heart and allowing it to pump through your veins. Because at the end of the day, in order to be happy we must follow our hearts. At least that is what I believe in! I took the first step by moving to NYC, even though I knew the expenses would completely destroy my bank accounts and wallet lol! (NYC is BEAUTIFUL but lord almighty EXPENSIVE!!!) Point is that, I still followed my dream of moving to and living in NYC. And I really did a great job at it! I saved my money, met some great people, made my mark on campus and excelled academically! So I am proud of myself! (a pat on the back for me, yay;)) However, I also learned that in order to bring my passions to life, I need to eliminate or separate myself from all forms of negativity. This is a must because the only force of energy that should be influencing my life decisions, besides the Law of Conservation and Energy (which states that the total energy of an isolated system stays constant and overall conserved overtime;) lol just a little Physics) and who I am and want to be, is the beauty of POSITIVITY. 

I need to trust that time is on my side. And I think one of the most confusing and frustrating aspects of that is not knowing exactly what I want to do with my life after college. I have struggled so much in figuring out where my identity lies outside of my education and academic success! I constantly question and worry that I do not have anything else to offer this world besides straight A's and a high GPA... 

But that is the beauty of TIME...right? It sure must be because everyone around me constantly tells me that I am so young and; therefore, I have so much TIME to figure everything out. So... that is what I am going to do. I am going to take TIME and figure things out. I am going to acknowledge the TIME but also take advantage of it to focus on what my heart desires. In doing so, this post will actually be my last.. for awhile or forever. Who knows what the future holds? Maybe during or after the summer I will come back with something bigger, better and stronger than ever! 

Otherwise, stay beautiful and lovely - as I am sure you already are. And a special thanks to those who read, followed, and supported my blog since day one! Luv you guys:)

Oh and do NOT worry! The Innocently Fierce legacy shall still carry on! Just look out for me on the billboards and all in the future;)

Xoxx,
Miss True.